Thats where I am, I am somewhere in the middle. I went home last weekend for a quick little visit. Had a good time, Hung out with both the Fa's and my parents. Went to a hockey game, Spokane vs Silvertips, Who to cheer for?
Not only am I not sure which team I rightfully belong to but it seems like even home doesent feel like home. This is my second time visiting since I moved out. The first time was just kind of a blurr and things went great. I came home, I was fine. This time, when I got to Everrett and I was driving around the streets that I am pretty familiar with I couldnt help but think how weird it felt. I felt like a stranger, I felt that it wasnt the same welcoming feeling. It was just different. Even at home on the island, in the grocery store. These places are not mine any more. I dont go there everyday I dont belong. So I feel stuck in a place and I dont know where it is. I thought I would go home and I would feel so welcomed you know (Not by my familyand friends, they were very welcoming) everything would be so familiar. Because in Spokane I dont feel that familiarity yet, the comfort and ease. So what I am trying to get at is, I no longer feel at home, at home on the island, and at the same time I dont feel at home in Spokane. So where is my home?
Spokane is so different the out West. Sure there are trees, and they change colors....kinda. But nothing beats what the west has. How beautiful it is. When I was home it rained everyday! It never rains here in Spokane. The trees had all turned colors and everything looked so festive! I miss all the trees, I miss the ocean, the crisp air, the never ending stars, I miss the smell of the island. I miss so much from over there. Its such a beautiful place to live.
It was a great italian fiesta! Next time only one thing of noodles!
Love everyone!
Monday, November 3, 2008
Somewhere in the Middle
Posted by free2be at 12:32 PM
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3 comments:
Amanda,
Sometimes home is not always place, but a feeling.
You need to keep in mind you’re in a transition that could take a few years to evolve. You did not move to Spokane to “live”, you moved there to go to school!!!
It sounds like you’re going to be on the move again in two years to a different school, I’m sure there will be something you’ll miss about Spokane when you get there. (like the truckers!)
You have only lived there for three months….you need to give it more time. Probably just as you’re getting comfortable with it, you’ll be off to Oregon, then you’ll have to start all over again.
For now, let the people around you, near and far who make you smile and laugh be your home!
We love you and are very proud of you! ~ M
And then we cooked pasta and we looked in the pot and thought it wasnt enough, but then it was just as much as before, and the big bow tie pasta didnt keep it shape and then we watched numero vienti tres and then we got even more freaked out and then WE SPOONED!
<3 Fa1
Lol.
It rained yesterday.
And we were in Spokane...
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